I am sick and tired of feeling sick.
Prior to having Maya I had a stomach of steel and the best metabolism a girl could ask for. I could eat anything and everything and not thing twice about it. I knew nothing about calories or fat. I never considered how many servings of anything I ate. I would eat a giant bowl of Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Brownie followed by a plate of fries. And I never gained an ounce. At nearly 5’8″ I was about 115. I had no idea how good I had it.
Enter Maya. I wish I could blame my problems on her but I gained only about 20 lbs. and literally the day after she was born I lost it all. I was back in my normal jeans when I left the hospital. I packed up all my maternity clothes and sent them away. Far, far away. (They were hideous). The thing was that I was so miserably sleep deprived that I couldn’t have cared less. There was no time to eat or sleep, nevermind go to the gym. Weight was the furthest thing from my mind. Oh, the good old days.
So now I am about 120 lbs. Not a big weight gain in 5 years, of course. And yes I know that I am at the low-end of a normal weight for my height. But the problem is the redistribution of weight. The love handles drive me crazy. The bigger problem is that I know the weight isn’t coming from what I eat but from some other problem that I cannot get diagnosed for the life of me. And whatever the problem is came as a result of having Maya.
I am so tired of random skin rashes and horrible stomach aches. One day I’ll be fine and my stomach is flat and the love handles are minimal and then the next day I feel terrible and my brain is foggy and I can’t eat anything without feeling achy. It’s very strange. I eat SO WELL. No junk, no sugar, nothing with trans fat. I cook about 90% of what I eat and when I eat out I usually have salads (and lately some of Maya’s pancakes!) I have seen 3 gastroenterologists, an allergist, a nutritionist, and 2 internists. I have had an endoscopy, an allergy test, numerous blood tests, and I am still no further ahead.
I feel like I need to take things into my own hands. I am seriously debating doing the Fat Flush Plan to get my system back to normal. I am a firm believer that amazon.com reviewers know all and they seem quite pleased with this “diet.” I am reading the book right now and to me it seems more like a way to restore equilibrium than a diet. There are no strange maple syrup/pepper/lemon concoctions that I am supposed to subsist on. Instead, a lot of flax, vegetables and protein. Eggs, water, and fruit. I can do this. I think. This diet would be easier for a non-veg but I am going to make it work (I hope).
I visited Whole Paycheck today to purchase some of the vitamins, flax and protein powder (as a vegetarian I supposedly need this instead of eating the meat). This plan is expensive but I figure in the long run its cheaper than my $35 copay times a million doctors. I hate you Aetna.
So basically I need to get through 2 weeks of no carbs which in theory should be easier than 2 weeks of non stop stomach aches. I am going to keep that thought with me as I embark on this plan tomorrow (or Wednesday).
Call it the placebo effect but my stomach already feels a little better knowing a solution might be in sight!!